yes, that's what I meant in my earlier comment (I think few pages back), but I was just assuming/guessing. It's easy for me to say this and that about Girlnah when I have absolutely no clue on what emotions she's going through. From someone like me who likes to sort of just get things done and not dwell on things it's easy for me to say stop whining, or look at modeling as a great opportunity to get your life back, etc. I am sympathetic, but at the same time I don't understand it which is why I find her blog just sad and frustrating. Anyhoo, I stopped following her I think maybe a month - 2 months back.
I'm really sorry for what you are going through. I really really hope you reach out to someone, confide with someone close to you/someone you trust. I hope things improve for you. I'm really sorry for what you are going through. I really hope you get to a place where you no longer isolate yourself, talk to other people and go out of the house. Kisses.