I think this thread should be taken down. SG community obviously doesn't support sick behavior and commenting on Lexi just encourages her disorder and feeds her fragmented ego. ED's are like a demon that slowly but surely torture the host and an addiction that perseveres by attention, among other triggers. No doubt in my mind this girl has anorexia and exercise bulimia. It's not about accusing someone but stating the obvious in order to bring it to the light.
MESSAGE TO LEXI since she is a regular reader:
I have nothing but empathy and compassion for you however if you think that hf models and girls who truly made it in the industry got there by exhausting their bodies to the limits and pushing it to the point of NO RETURN as their pledge of devotion and sacrifice to "God's of fashion" to prove their diligence and loyalty then you have to open your eyes big time. There is no assurance that you will be a successful model even if you're thin as a skeleton, no starvation can give the certainty you're looking for. There is so much more going on behind the scenes and it is exactly why there are sites like this that admire those who made it since there is no one size fits all or a recipe to hitting it big. What is so fucked up is the fact you have lots of (young) followers who check your every move and are probably infatuated by a pretty model girl who tells them the only way to get any acknowledgement is through extreme ways of living and not fulfilling your basic needs. Health is obviously a joke to you at this point which is so sad because many others with ed's are struggling hard to shed some light on how hard it is to come out of it not even just recovered but alive (ed's are one of the leading cause od death when it comes to mental health disorders). You are proving models to be exactly how they are being portrayed in mainstream media and continue to feed the stigma around them. You make it seem like ed is something necessary to have to be noticed and make a difference since all your posts revolve around it. Gloryfing ed just means you are so caught up in it that you can't distinguish it from your true self. There is much much more to life than being in you head 0-24. Even though this loop that is repeating itself constantly in your brain right now might seem like a true purpose of your existence and an ultimate goal to reach (which is of course unreachable since ed is the master of trickery), you might wants to have a safe home one day, children perhaps and live until the old age which is not going to happen if you continue down this road. Now you may ask how does this differ from loving the skinny aesthetic and lurking on SG every now and then? It sure does, no one here wants you to die to start off and although some methods of achieving the thinness might not be welcomed by your average medical professional, being emaciated and undernourished is far from what is praised here. Moreover, to reach the top (which seems what you're aiming for) takes not only to be in the best shape ever but also in your best health ever and even if some big brand notices you and decides to hire you (like you said that you hope will happen), I can guarantee that you won't be able to keep up and stay on top of your game this way. You need to have something that represents you except your looks, a positive and meaningful message to share and one that is not indulging in your ed would be a good start. Use what you're going through as a blessing and help other people overcome it. At the end of the day, do you really want others to feel as miserable and as empty as someone who eats only a small salad for dinner (without the sauce, always) does? Is that the message you want to leave others with? You are more than that. I know it is not easy but start right now, at this moment today, make a decision to work on yourself every single day if not for the sake of yourself then for the sake of people you care for. There is so much wonderful information out there and also if you have/can find that one person to rely on who can accompany you on your journey towards healing and becoming the best version of yourself you have lots to be grateful for and should start straight away. There are many books, workshops, podcasts, healthy environments that will support you. One book that might be a great start is called "Brain over binge" by Kathryn Hansen. You can also talk to members of SG community (me included ofc), I'm sure everyone would love to help you and get you out of that mental state but still have your skinny figure untouched. It's all about changing the strategy and having great results as well. You have all the tools and power to overcoming this. Hopeful that you will find your voice and get back on track.